I’m searching for something. Not quite sure what. But I feel unfulfilled. Could it be procrastination? Am I that determined not to study that I’m forever looking for something to do instead? Could it be that I want to be in a relationship that bad? Am I lacking attention so bad that I’m looking for more? Or is it just the fact that I’ve been sleeping in the same bed as an attractive man and not doing anything with him that’s finally starting to get to me?